Sunday, January 31, 2010

contentment and change

i was having this discussion with a close friend on the topic of being content. i have a lot in my life, yet i am not happy with all that i have achieved or gained. it could always be better. based on most of the entries on this page, im sure you can sense humourous skepticism and a certain amount of bitterness. i feel this is the personal quality that inhibits true contentment. i am happy mind you, but discontent. a weird combination that encourages me to reinvent and keep changing my life day by day. in this way i am able to explore, experience new things, mostly because i tire of the old and i know all its faults. new always brings an opening up experience, the 'wow' factor. once the dust settles you see the sharp edges and the things that don't go too well with what you like. and then i am no longer happy with what i have. this is why i must change, either the surroundings, the materialistic item, or even myself. in the corporate world, change is necessary. but as an individual, how much can we change without diluting our true selves?

Friday, January 22, 2010

everything i am thankful for

its been some time since i have visited any place/exhibition interesting or worthy of mention. it has been some time since i have done anything of the sort (interesting) apart from shopping. a special note to v, who spiced up my life and inspired me in a day, talking and walking non stop. lots of teh tarik. and thai food. i am yet to see the beautiful photographs (most of which feature the two of us and a sea, i mean mer, lion). since then i have red polka dots and topaz blue, downed a packet of tim tams and still have 2 chocolate shoes to devour (after being aptly photographed and documented ofcourse). within a month, and almost in a frenzy i have updated my collection of cameras and electronics. together with my fluorescent sticker buddy i will hopefully exhibit some of my million photographs. on a sideline, i also question myself 'do i have it in me' while 'running along'. something i have forced myself to do and discover. and, thanks to inspiration and support from friends, i have been able to overcome a lot of insecurities and begin 'running along'. i also have a wip painting that i am so itching to bring closer to completion. i do have a lot of things on my plate right now, so ill put the palette off till later. i have not been able to blog on junkbox because of my budget constraints. all this new acquirement has taken a toll, and there go the pretty little pastries. im wondering whether i should go the budget way and blog about lunch, and rename it 'lunchbox'. until march, my travel plans are grim. march is exciting, and how can it not be! after march the travel plans are much greyer. i will however, go downunder in the downunderspring. krabi for a weekend in july. and if God is on my side, and permits, i may touch the golden sands in the desert. this is too tentative to be excited about. the only realistic attractions that i am looking forward to, one in fear, anxiety and dread on the 28th of feb and the other in excitement on the 29th of march. plus the first week of march, to those who know, will know what the excitement is about, (what's up by the 4 non blondes still applies). i have sent my 3rd lomo roll to develop. i hope this one survives the trials of life and doesnt end up like the other two. i am also looking forward to receiving 3 fuji 110 film rolls in the mail. no, thats a farce, im just excited about using the worlds smallest slr, and this will be in march again. (fingers crossed and i hope it works! 25 years can take a toll on things). my ever evolving places to visit has put okinawa on its list. and if im going to make it to japan, i want to do the whole nine yards, and make it to hokkaido as well. for the time being, maybe i should learn japanese. my iphone has opened up the amazing possibility of mobile publishing. i just wish the keyboard was designed for fat thumbs and long nails. i love the digital lomo, i love the sleepcycle thing, unblock me and i love the rimshot. i have new toys to play with and i have people to love. home i miss you. srilanka i miss you. i thank God for my precious family and all my friends. you light up my life and my life couldnt be any better right now.

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