the greener side of life

blank.

lost.

i've got the "i just dun want to do anything" syndrome. a million things to sort out before i actually have a vacation. ive been longing for one.

but then i know that im gonna be bored in the vacation. because i still dont have anything to do. 2.5 months of nothingness. the only thing that makes me want to go home is because it IS home and i miss home so much.

its not as if i like stayin on my own either. but just that id like to be a little less dependant at home. but its so unsafe in that country that i have no choice but to be dependant. which makes life freakin boring after a point. but nothing beats going home.

full of contradictions. i want everything that i dont have. chronic "grass is always greener on the other side" syndrome. the best song to describe me right now would be side by travis. i just dunno wat to do.

this blog is boring me.