the green mile

Mood:so so
Song:9 million bicycles...
Newest infatuation:a full lead pencil
Secretly craving: honestly... nothing :)
Wish i were...someone yet no-one

The green mile for archi students is the last two weeks before submission. it is the most difficult time of the semester and it takes a whole lot of courage to go on. It like walking in a tunnel while everyone else is walking on the grass. its a do or die situation. if u dont do, u die cos its game over. but if u do, u die too. ur cutting short a few years of ur life by not sleeping, living under permanent stress, staring at the comp screen for hours, no exercise, no happiness...

but im going to miss all this. the routine of the semester. the big bad world looks like a scary place. i dont know why i made this decision. i sometimes wish i hadnt. but i guess its the only decision i could have made, and now that i have made a decision, i am going to stick by it. never regret anything u do. because there's always a lesson to be learnt from it, and life never ends there. it will only if u make it.

lately i havent been angry with the world, neither have i been upset with everyone around me. i honestly dont know how or what i feel. ive always not wanted to be a student, but now i want to be one forever. i hardly know what to expect from the world. im going to miss my frens... i dunno. i feel im cutting the whole experience short. but in the end its probably for the better. its a gut feeling that im riding on so i hope it right.

ok so much for the rambling...
the real world situation:
define the new elderly? who are they? what are their needs?
what will people want in the year 2010? will they want to go back to basics? or will they be so much in the future the past seems like the ice age....
my belief is that nature will always be wanted. whether people realise it or not, there will always be a need for the calming and therapeutic effects of nature. especially for the new elderly...

balancing nature with aesthetics, manmade nature and obviously, technology is the hard part. but its fun, and i have a great liking towards the concept of my project. i hope i can get all the drawings out to its benefit.

there is this eagerness and excitement to do well. and there is the fear, the hesitation, what if i make a mistake? what if i have to redo? what if its all wrong? but i think these are thoughts that need to be battled to reach the next level, and thats how it will all go on.... its problem solving, and by gosh the problems in my mind! haha

oh well since im all charged up now, im going
btw is talking to 'no-one', eg a blog, considered schizo?
i thnk thats what im doing..
well hail to the psychos, the worlds not complete without us
ta fer now yos