dejected and depressed

Mood:blue/ borderline jealousy of all those lucky people out there
Song: silence
Newest infatuation: fries
Secretly craving: chocolate
Wish i were...famous, outgoing, popular, cool, smart, focused, lucky, rich...

ok well things really aren;t going too well. i mean my lifes great and all but i lack that something thats going to make me a future. the something that everyone else seems to have but i dont.

i dont even know what the next step in my life is going to be. graduate. work. and then study again. or just go through till the end and then work... i really have no idea wat i should do. even if i do work, what am i going to do... will i even be eligible for a decent job...

life after school has gotten depressing. no one cares about u anymore. you dont have time to make friends. they just want to work ur butt and ur head off. so once that is over, where to? the competition doesnt suit all, it works badly on some of us. theyve got to know that some of us do indeed have potential, but it shows in different ways, or more like it doesnt show under pressure. sigh but the problem is, in the real world, you gotta look after urself. no ones gonna bother about how you feel. i just hope God has a plan for me.

for now i think ill just try to crawl out of my depression and enjoy the essay im going to write, and be thankful for all the things ive been blessed with, instead of being green over what i dont have. life has a promise. ill just have to see it.